The purpose of this entry is to try to understand what people think and to debate different points of view. For the purpose of debate I would ask that anyone who participates not attack anyone else's point of view but rather that you would state your point of view and give any evidence of why you think that way. Also I would ask that you label the topic of your point of view. Obviously there are too many topics to tackle all at once thus I ask that you pick a particular topic and debate it. You may choose as many topics as you want to but try to tackle one or two at time at your convenience. I will be started the debate and I hope to pose several different possibilities for each topic. My purpose is to try to enhance my perspective of life.
Here is the premise of our new world. A new technology has been invented and is available to all people across the world. These machines have the abilities to create anything from patterns that are entered into the machine. Patterns are available from a master data bank as free wireless downloads. These patterns are able to create anything from food, water, electronics, clothes, anything. Thus if you want a stake and cheese fries you download the pattern and get it. If you want a big screen tv you download the pattern and its yours. If you want a BMW then you download the pattern and you have one. Everyone everywhere can have anything that is available in the master data base. Also there are scanners that sweep through and can add anything into the master database patterns. All companies throughout the world are required to enter a master pattern for anything that is invented, and of course everyone follows this rule to the letter. So now that you have no need to work to get anything you want what will the world turn into..?
Friday, July 29, 2011
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Tinnitus
If you are here reading this then I am 99% sure that you either have tinnitus or someone very close to you does. Either way I would say that I am sorry, but not sorry that you have or don't have ringing in your life. Instead I am sorry that you are here reading about this because in some way you are reaching out for help. I know what you are going through because in my own way I am reaching our for help also. Unfortunately if you are here then you have not found the help that you need. For that I am sorry.
I like you have experienced to some degree a profound change in my life. I describe this change as the good and bad days. If you have tinnitus you know exactly what I am talking about. Every day of your life since the silence ended has either been a good day or a bad day. This may seem like an obvious statement to the average person who would contend that everyday is either a good day or a bad day. However, to you and I this has a whole new and different meaning. Unfortunately those who do not share our common affliction there is no way to help them understand.
So instead of trying to paint a vivid picture of day to day life I will use emotion words. This may seem odd to those who stumble across this page and do not have ringing in their ears, but I am certain that this will speaks volumes to those who do.
Today i feel TIRED
Today i feel ANGRY
Today i feel ENVIOUS
Today i feel ALONE
Today i feel HELPLESS
Today i feel HOPELESS
Today i feel eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
This blog is not meant for those to comment and talk to me. If you do then let the comments be for your benefit. This blog is my way of reaching out to those who understand first hand what I am going through. For all of those people know this; I understand you. I do not pity or feel sorry for you. I do wish that you didn't hear ringing.
This last year has been better than the one before it. If to you Tinnitus is a new thing know that it gets better. If to you Tinnitus is an old thing know that you are not alone. And there is power in not being alone.
I like you have experienced to some degree a profound change in my life. I describe this change as the good and bad days. If you have tinnitus you know exactly what I am talking about. Every day of your life since the silence ended has either been a good day or a bad day. This may seem like an obvious statement to the average person who would contend that everyday is either a good day or a bad day. However, to you and I this has a whole new and different meaning. Unfortunately those who do not share our common affliction there is no way to help them understand.
So instead of trying to paint a vivid picture of day to day life I will use emotion words. This may seem odd to those who stumble across this page and do not have ringing in their ears, but I am certain that this will speaks volumes to those who do.
Today i feel TIRED
Today i feel ANGRY
Today i feel ENVIOUS
Today i feel ALONE
Today i feel HELPLESS
Today i feel HOPELESS
Today i feel eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
This blog is not meant for those to comment and talk to me. If you do then let the comments be for your benefit. This blog is my way of reaching out to those who understand first hand what I am going through. For all of those people know this; I understand you. I do not pity or feel sorry for you. I do wish that you didn't hear ringing.
This last year has been better than the one before it. If to you Tinnitus is a new thing know that it gets better. If to you Tinnitus is an old thing know that you are not alone. And there is power in not being alone.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
"Ringing"
For the last several months I have been experiencing what those in the medical community call "tinnitus". Many people have never heard of this before and to be honest I was ignorant to this until I myself experienced it. Tinnitus refers to a ringing noise in the ears. This noise has no outside origion and is due to the misfiring of auditory nerves between the ear and the brain. There is no cure nothing that can be done to help and no one can possible understand without experiencing it for themselves.
I have described what tinnitus is but not what it means to someone who has it. Tinnitus really means loneliness. Its funny how something so simply and nonthreatning can leave a person feeling very very alone. At first most people don't really understand when they here what it is. They asked questions and give pity remarks saying things like "that sounds aweful" or "I'm really sorry". But rather than having you imagine what it would be like to have ringing in your head all the time I would rather describe the day I had today.
This morning I woke up feeling very tired because I didn't sleep much last night. I woke up several times and finally had to go into the living room and turn on the tv louder than my wife can stand to fall asleep. When I did wake up it wasn't so bad today so I tried my best to ignore it through listening to music in the car and turning on a fan a home and for the most part today was ok. Later on in the evening is when it started to bother me. There are constant ups and downs when it comes to ringing. Some days you are so busy and distracted that you hardley notice, and other days my head hurts from tugging on my hair because its too hard to concentrate on anything. I feel as though today was a relitively good day. I think thats why I've decided to write. I don't think I could write about it on a bad day.
Many days I really just feel alone. Constant ringing is a funny thing because when you tell others about it you either get pitied which doesn't make you feel any better or it forces you to really focus on the ringing which makes it worse. So most of the time I keep my thoughts to myself. I'm tired of bothering people about it. It's funny because I don't really want others to know about it the more time goes on. Or I should rephrase that to say I don't want people that I come in regular contact with to know about it. I don't like discussing it in person because it makes me feel inferior to those around me. Having something wrong with you for which there is no cure or treatment tends to make you feel helpless. I hate feeling helpless I've always felt as though there was nothing in this life that I couldn't overcome. Now I would gladly accept help to overcome, but there is no help for me.
This is why I want to share my thoughts. Perhaps I can find som help or help someone else. Either way I think I'm just looking for some way to empower myself. Not empower like those self help guys try to make you feel empowered, but rather true empowerment found through myself. I don't want someone else to show me the way I want to find it. In fact somehow I think that finding it is the only way to achieve it. I think that I feel alone because right now I want to feel alone. Hopefully that will change but I don't think that this is the kind of thing that you change because you want to. Rather I think that change will only come through action.
I have described what tinnitus is but not what it means to someone who has it. Tinnitus really means loneliness. Its funny how something so simply and nonthreatning can leave a person feeling very very alone. At first most people don't really understand when they here what it is. They asked questions and give pity remarks saying things like "that sounds aweful" or "I'm really sorry". But rather than having you imagine what it would be like to have ringing in your head all the time I would rather describe the day I had today.
This morning I woke up feeling very tired because I didn't sleep much last night. I woke up several times and finally had to go into the living room and turn on the tv louder than my wife can stand to fall asleep. When I did wake up it wasn't so bad today so I tried my best to ignore it through listening to music in the car and turning on a fan a home and for the most part today was ok. Later on in the evening is when it started to bother me. There are constant ups and downs when it comes to ringing. Some days you are so busy and distracted that you hardley notice, and other days my head hurts from tugging on my hair because its too hard to concentrate on anything. I feel as though today was a relitively good day. I think thats why I've decided to write. I don't think I could write about it on a bad day.
Many days I really just feel alone. Constant ringing is a funny thing because when you tell others about it you either get pitied which doesn't make you feel any better or it forces you to really focus on the ringing which makes it worse. So most of the time I keep my thoughts to myself. I'm tired of bothering people about it. It's funny because I don't really want others to know about it the more time goes on. Or I should rephrase that to say I don't want people that I come in regular contact with to know about it. I don't like discussing it in person because it makes me feel inferior to those around me. Having something wrong with you for which there is no cure or treatment tends to make you feel helpless. I hate feeling helpless I've always felt as though there was nothing in this life that I couldn't overcome. Now I would gladly accept help to overcome, but there is no help for me.
This is why I want to share my thoughts. Perhaps I can find som help or help someone else. Either way I think I'm just looking for some way to empower myself. Not empower like those self help guys try to make you feel empowered, but rather true empowerment found through myself. I don't want someone else to show me the way I want to find it. In fact somehow I think that finding it is the only way to achieve it. I think that I feel alone because right now I want to feel alone. Hopefully that will change but I don't think that this is the kind of thing that you change because you want to. Rather I think that change will only come through action.
A New Day
This is a new day for me in my life. I have decieded to share my story with the world. I feel as though many share similar challenges and hopes as I do. however, I hope to reach people through my experiences and I hope to be reach by others. In this I welcome input I will try to respond to things that I here about and possible link several things through other medis outlets.
Rather than working through the story chronologically I've decieded to let emotion dictate what gets told and when. This way I feel as though more meaningful things will be shared. Even if very few share in my thoughts I feel validated just putting them out there for whatever reason.
Rather than working through the story chronologically I've decieded to let emotion dictate what gets told and when. This way I feel as though more meaningful things will be shared. Even if very few share in my thoughts I feel validated just putting them out there for whatever reason.
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